Psychology, psychology, psychology

What do the people in the know say is the most important think to master in trading?

PSYCHOLOGY!!

And as expected - inevitably the hardest!

So what I have done is taken the bull by the horns and I am now starting counselling with a therapist. It is amazing to read the previous post from July and I am still in exactly the same dilemma. Still stuck, still not doing what I know I need to do and if I do take action, I tend to do something that leaves the proverbial handbrake on and the vehicle loaded with "great intentions" moves very slowly and then comes to a sudden stall.

The distractions take many forms, such as cleaning the house, needing to walk the dogs or something in the internet I absolutely must read and research at that time. Also I have a new thing - taking in foster dogs from a dog charity. Yes, in itself a very noble and great thing to do, but not so when that is something I use as a self distracting technique.

So, hence the therapy.

I have now seen three different therapists and I have one more to see until I make a decision on who to go with. All three very different and have different things to offer, so I need to make a decision which type of issues I want to focus on and with what kind of therapist.

I am excited and looking forward to the process. It has been sad watching myself ruining all the good efforts I put in. But one thing is for sure - I will keep going! It is now too late to change my mind - well I suppose I could go back to a "job", but I think I would rather die...

It is very interesting why we do this to ourselves. I think lack of will power certainly plays a part, but I dont think one can rely on willpower alone in something that clearly has its roots much deeper in ones psyche. I think I just dont accept that I can one day be something when all of my family tries / tried its hardest to live as small life as possible.

My parents visited over the Christmas holidays and my mum said to me when we passed GSK headquarters in London "it wouldve been so much easier if you had just stayed there". (My Thrid university year was spent working for themas an industrial placement). EASIER??? Easier my ass!! I wouldve been even more depressed and felt like a living dead! A number on a paper. An average person doing an average job. living in the "real world".

So no - trading it is! And I love it! And Im sure I will be loving it even more soon when I actually get better to control my own emotions.

Until then, kiss and goodbye xx